Do you just ever find yourself looking at the clock at the exact same time everyday? For years, I will look at the clock right at 12:34. My Mom and I both do it, so we send texts to each other saying “12:34!” all the time. But for months now, I not only look at the clock at 12:34, but also 11:11. Whether it be in the morning or at night, I find myself staring at the clock right at 11:11. I feel like there’s a proper term for this kind of thing happening, but I’m not really sure. I just think it’s pretty cool. Anyways, the coolness isn’t really the point of this blog post. You know how when someone says “It’s 11:11, make a wish!” I’ve found myself not wishing when I look at the clock when I see those all too familiar numbers. I substituted wishing for praying a short prayer that I’ve been saying these past couple of months. Sometimes I get lost in the day and don’t really think to pray. So nowadays, when I look at the clock at 11:11, I pray my short prayer. These months have been hard on me for reasons that I can’t bring myself to talk about yet, but praying gives me a sense of hope that one day, maybe I’ll get out of this darkness that I feel surrounds me.
So what’s the prayer that I find myself repeating at 11:11? “I pray for love, I pray for success, I pray for clarity.” I pray for love because I want to show love to everyone I meet, but I’ve just felt so alone recently. I pray for success because I have these crazy dreams, but I just don’t know how to get there. But when I pray for success I don’t mean just career wise and financially, I pray for success in the sense that I’m doing the things that I’ve only dreamed of, in all aspects of life, whether that be relationships or health, if that makes any sense. Lastly, I pray for clarity because my mind has been going in all different directions of what I want to do with my life, and I don’t know what path to take.
These three things have been on my heart a lot recently, and I’ve just found it easy to remember to pray this when I see 11:11, morning or night. I feel like this is the most random post, but I guess I wanted to share these thoughts today as a way to remember what I was doing daily during this stage of my life. It’s weird writing these personal thoughts on here for who knows to see, but 11:11 has been everywhere (especially since I’ve said it about 10 times in this post haha), and I want to share my thoughts on here, hence the category “My Thoughts and I.” I’d love to know if there’s a certain time that you always see or if there’s something you do each day to try and stay sane! Hope you guys have a great weekend <3